Chapter One
Kash Masterson kicked in her
door as easily as if it had been
made of papier mâché.
The din rising from the saloon
below muffled the sound of his
boot against the fir plank barrier.
Neither wood, nor iron, was going
to keep him out of the room or
out of the woman.
The young soiled dove had skin
like milk and honey and it glowed
like gold in the light of her
kerosene lantern. She was about
the most comely chippy he’d
ever seen--and he’d visited
his fair share of cathouses.
He closed the door with a second
kick. The broken lock swung in
time to the vibration, beating
against the door like it was
a snare drum.
She modestly pulled the covers
up to her chin.
He approached with a drunken
swagger on legs bowed from being
too long in the saddle. It had
been a long cattle drive from
hither to yon and he deserved
to tie one on proper and get
a bit of lovin’ from a
lady or two before he headed
back out.
He pulled her bedclothes down,
stripping away her hidey hole.
He unfastened his gun belt and
set it on her bedside table,
then unhooked the top button
on his wool riding breeches.
Her eyes widened at the sight
of what he had to offer her as
he released the bull from the
pen. He stroked his erection
proudly. Even drunk he could
unleash a bronco. And brother,
was he ever drunk.
She said nothing; nada.
She just looked at him with big
doe eyes surrounded by that honey
skin and long black hair. Mamacita,
she was a pretty thing!
He shook off the whiskey dizzy
buzzing between his ears and
climbed aboard.
He dug in his spurs and set
about the business of making
love to the lady, expecting to
hear the moans and praises all
such women give their paying
customers. Praises came with
the dollar he’d left with
the bartender for her services.
For these few minutes he’d
become the greatest lover in
the territories. And she’d
tell him so, too.
The dusky beauty under him didn’t
respond as expected--she remained
still and quiet as he pressed
and prodded. He liked to think
he could give a woman a good
run for his money. Not bringing
any pleasure to a lady just wasn’t
how he liked things. He was paying
for it, goddammit--she’d
better start enjoying it!
He’d been drinking pretty
heavy. Perhaps the bottle had
swallowed the best of him this
time ‘round. No matter--he
figured he could work the filly
up to a climax before he spilled
himself.
He didn’t get the chance.
A sharp blow to the back of
his head sent him reeling. Before
he could fight back, he found
himself flying across the room.
He landed with a harsh, painful
thud against the wall.
He heard the chippy scream--not
the kind of scream he’d
been expecting, mind you--but
a blood-curdling scream cut short
by a slew of words in Spanish
he couldn’t translate for
all the stars flitting about
his head.
Somehow, Kash managed to stand.
He raised clenched fists, ready
to fight back--but stopped. The
girl was still on the bed, all
balled up, hiding her head and
weeping like she was a paid mourner.
Between the bed and where Kash
had landed stood his assailant--a
wild-eyed holy man; a Mexican
priest with a big silver Crucifix
attached to his waist. The priest’s
brown robes were stained and
sooty and his long hair looked
plaited with mud. Kash had seen
men walk the line between heathenism
and the Church before--but never
so dramatically. Save for the
Crucifix, the priest could have
passed for an Indian medicine
man.
The priest sprang at Kash like
a wildcat, flying at him with
both fists punching while his
low, angry voice streamed curses
in Spanish that Kash wouldn’t
repeat in a room full of the
most hardcore hombres in all
of Texas. “En el nombre
de Cristo, yo impongo a todos
los santos y los sagrados sirvientes
para condenar el alma al tormento
eternal por su crimen! Tú eres
rio seco que por siempre buscará la
lluvia de los cielos. Tú eres
un campo estéril suplicando
por los semillas. Buscaras el
amor solomente en los brazos
de mujers que nunca podras amar.
Tú alma sera alimentad
por sus vientres. Diós
te dará la espalda. El
Diablo te dará la bienvenida.
La luz del día te rechazará.
La noche sera aliada. Hasta que
una mujer sacrifique su alma
por tí, tú serás
conocido como un amor demonio
una sombra impura, maldecida
y abandonada para siempre.”
Kash held up his hands in a
peaceful-like gesture. He couldn’t
fight a priest for Christ’s
sake--even though this priest
sure as Hell meant to do him
a bit of bodily harm!
“Now wait just a minute,
Padre! I’m just a cowboy
getting’ a bit of lovin’!
I’m not committin’ no
crime here!”
“Si, hombre. You attacked
this woman. She is in my charge!
You rape a nun, you rape your
own soul!” the priest cursed. “Tú serás
conocido como un amor demonio
una sombra impura, maldecida
y abandonada para siempre.”
“She’s a nun? What’s
a nun doing in a whorehouse?” Kash
asked. He glanced over at the
young woman. “She doesn’t
look like a nun! And I’ve
never forced myself on a woman...” he
paused, casting a regretful gaze
at the girl. He’d never
exactly asked her permission,
either.
The woman nodded at Kash, tears
streaming down her cheeks. She
made the sign of the cross and
choked out, ‘lo siento
mucho,’ between her sobs.
Kash’s own tears welled
up. He was too drunk to know
if he’d done the deed or
not--but by the look on the priest’s
face, and the girl’s--he
thought maybe he had violated
the young servant of God. Damn!
That was the last thing he saw--her
fresh, beautiful face--her huge
eyes, weeping. Weeping for him,
he figured--because he died that
night, sure as he’d been
shot in the heart. Not from the
blows dealt by the old priest--but
by those damning words. They
were the killing blow. The goddamn
blessed curse words.
* * * *
Kash knew he was dreaming. He’d
had the same nightmare enough
times to recognize it for what
it was. No matter how hard he
tried to fight against the flow
of images plaguing him every
time he tried to get some shuteye,
his dream-self committed the
same crime he himself had committed
in his drunken, reckless youth.
He wanted to awaken so desperately.
But never did--until the dream
had played itself out.
* * * *
The loco en la cabeza Padre hovered
over his corpse after he went
down. Really down. Pulled down
by unseen claws to the floor
and beyond the floor. Through
the building and through the
hard-pack Arizona desert over
which the saloon had been built.
He didn’t go physically--only
his soul went down into the bowels
of Hell. His body stayed behind.
Bloodied up. Probably starting
to stink. He could still hear
and see. He could feel, too.
He felt cold. But he couldn’t
move. He no longer even needed
to breathe.
The priest spoke intermittently,
muttering phrases in broken English
and incoherent Spanish. He crossed
himself as he spoke. Kash could
see the fevered look on the old
man’s face, but couldn’t
move a damned muscle.
Maybe he’s giving me Last
Rites, Kash thought.
No--that crazy old priest was
praying for himself. Praying
for forgiveness. Seems condemning
a man to a living Hell had a
catch--it condemned him, too.
Kash realized he wasn’t
alone on the journey into Hell.
He had company--that crazy Padre
with his blasted muttering and
prayers was trailing just behind
him. And for Christ’s sake--he
was starting to catch the gist
of what the priest was saying.
Rules. He’s making
a list of rules for me to follow
in eternal damnation. Jesus
Christ! This can’t be
happening to me!