Chapter One
Ryan Putnam rolled to a stop outside
the house and killed the engine.
He hadn’t expected it, but
the Good Fortune ranch looked different.
It wasn’t the childhood home
he remembered, though he had just
visited the previous Christmas. He
couldn’t put his finger on
it. Maybe it was the children’s
bikes and toys on the porch? Maybe
it was the swing set in the front
yard?
Or maybe it was just Ryan, himself?
He felt like a different man. The
last time he had visited, he had
been with John. They had discussed
the possibility of their own family,
one day. Now that seemed like a very
long time ago. A lifetime.
Maybe the ranch looked different
because he was crawling home with
his tail between his legs, and it
wasn’t technically his home
anymore. It was his brother Clay’s
home, the one he shared with his
wife Paige. It was their children’s
home. He was just a guest who didn’t
have anywhere else to go.
When he opened the truck door, the
silence struck him. It wasn’t
a true silence, of course, but compared
to the city, it was peaceful. In
the distance, cows and horses made
their presence known, while the chickens
clucked much closer. The unmistakable
sound of children drifted from the
house, and Ryan smiled a little bit,
remembering the way he and Clay and
Ty had put their mother’s nerves
on end when they played Cowboys and
Indians.
“Not in the house!” she
would shout, before giving in and
joining their play. A new note of
pain merged with the much larger
symphony in his chest. If he was
being honest with himself, he was
really crawling home to his mother.
And she wasn’t there anymore,
either. Even though Clay had insisted
he come and stay with them on the
ranch to regroup, Ryan felt more
alone than ever.
He slammed the pick-up’s door
and lifted his bags from the back.
Ryan wasn’t sure how long he
would stay. Not only did he have
the summer off, but the high school
he had taught at for two years hadn’t
renewed his contract. Ryan didn’t
know if that had led directly to
the end of his life with John, but
it certainly hadn’t helped
their precarious relationship. So
even though he had no idea how long
he’d be staying, he had all
of his clothes and most of his worldly
possessions in the bed of the truck.
Paige stepped outside to greet him,
an infant on her hip and a toddler
clinging to her skirt. She had always
been a beautiful woman, but motherhood
had been especially kind to her.
He might not be interested in the
fairer sex, but even he could admit
that Clay was one lucky bastard.
Ryan smiled, and Paige grinned and
waved. As soon as little Leni recognized
him, her eyes widened and she immediately
began taking unsure, but hurried,
steps toward him.
“Leni, get back here.”
Ryan dropped his bags and bent to
pick up the little girl. “I’ve
got her. Hey, baby.”
She hugged his neck and kissed his
cheek. “Hi.”
“Where’s your daddy,
huh?”
Leni pointed to the barn. “With
Chief.”
“Ahh.” Ryan looked up. “Hey
there, pretty lady. Am I in time
for dinner?”
“You’ve got a few minutes.” Paige’s
cheeks glowed with health, and her
kind brown eyes watched him approach,
her smile reflected in them. “Matty
got into the flour again so I’ve
spent more time this afternoon cleaning
rather than cooking. Feel like a
cup of coffee to tide you over?”
“A cup of coffee sounds good.” He
adjusted Leni’s weight in his
arm as he ascended the porch steps. “Did
you let your brother get in the flour?
I thought you were supposed to watch
him.”
Leni beamed at him. “I helped.”
“I bet you did.” Now
that he was closer, he saw traces
of flour on Matty’s face and
in his dark hair. “He looks
like Clay, doesn’t he?”
Paige grinned. “Yeah, but
he’s got Ty’s sense of
trouble. Don’t tell Clay I
said that.”
Ryan had no intention of telling
Clay that his only son reminded Ryan
of their youngest brother. “Clay’s
probably already figured it out for
himself. Or maybe not.” Ryan
grinned. “He does think Leni
is a little angel, after all.”
Paige’s laughter led him into
the house. Even the interior felt
different than the home that had
always been a sanctuary. Toys littered
the front room, with a play stable
and horses filling an entire corner.
Sunlight flooded every corner, and
the smells drifting from the kitchen
didn’t match his memory. Paige’s
menus took a few more risks than
his mother’s had. It took considerable
effort to push those memories aside.
“I aired out your old room
for you,” Paige said as she
settled Matty into his high chair. “But
you know we put Leni next to it,
don’t you? If you want us to
move you, just say the word.”
Ryan put Leni in her booster seat.
He was happy that he had his old
room at least, but it was yet another
reminder that it wasn’t his
home anymore. But even Ryan could
admit that it wasn’t the house
bothering him. He’d live in
a cardboard box if he had the sort
of companionship--and family--Clay
did.
“No, that’s fine. I
know she gets up early, but Clay
will probably have me out and working
before the crack of dawn anyway.”
“Maybe not. He’s got
a new hand he’s working into
the crew. He and Teo have been going
out earlier than usual so he can
show him everything.”
“And Tony,” Leni piped
up.
“Tony doesn’t go on
those runs,” Paige corrected.
She bent and pulled a saucepan out
of the cupboard. “So you might
get lucky, Ryan.”
Ryan had already resolved to work
from sunup to sundown. It was probably
the only way he’d be able to
sleep. Otherwise, thoughts of John
would plague him until long after
midnight.
“Who’s Tony?” Ryan
asked, his question directed more
towards Leni than Paige.
“A boy. Teo’s his daddy.”
Matty slapped a chubby hand against
his food tray, prompting Paige to
magically appear with a sippy cup. “Clay
set them up in the old cottages out
behind the stables. Teo was going
to get a place in town, but Tony’s
only seven. I felt better having
him close by in case something happened
when Teo’s working.”
The cottages. Ryan hadn’t
thought about those in years. When
he was a kid, they were all inhabited.
But they became more obsolete as
the ranch hands settled in town with
families and homes and trucks. They
didn’t mind a little commute,
so the cottages fell out of use.
“Teo doesn’t have a
wife?”
Paige shook her head. “Widower.
Since Tony was a baby. He stopped
ranching for a few years to raise
his son, but now that Tony’s
a little older, he came right back
to it.” She smiled as she turned
back to the stove. “I think
he’s going to end up giving
Clay a run for his money. I’ve
never seen anybody who wasn’t
a Putnam work harder.”
“Clay must love him.” Matty
brought his sippy cup to his mouth,
but his big, green eyes were locked
on Ryan. Leni’s attention was
split between her mother and her
uncle. “Maybe that’ll
at least give Clay some free time
to do something besides work. Lord
knows he deserves it.”
“You could help with that,
you know.” She busied herself
with pouring out the coffee she’d
promised him. Ryan began to wonder
if she ever stopped. “If you
go around with Teo while he learns
the ropes, that’ll free Clay
up a lot.”
Ryan knew his brother well enough
to know that he probably put in twelve-hour
days, leaving him just enough time
to see his kids for a few minutes
before bedtime. Neither Clay nor
Paige would complain, of course.
But their kids might, when they realized
their father always had to put work
first.
“I’ll be happy to get
out there and get to work again.
I guess it’ll be your job to
make sure Clay actually uses his
free time for good.”
A timer went off. Paige opened the
refrigerator and took out a baking
pan covered in foil. “That’s
my favorite part of the job anyway,” she
shot over her shoulder. “Did
you want to run out and let him know
you’re here? Tell him dinner
will be a little later, too. Don’t
tell him why.”
“Yes, ma’am.” Ryan
stood, much to the alarm of the two
children at the table.
“Are you going out to see
Daddy?” Leni asked.
“Yes.”
“Can I go with you?”
“No.” He bent and brushed
his lips across the top of her head. “You
stay here and help your mother.”
Leni looked so disappointed he almost
scooped her out of her chair to bring
her along. But he wasn’t sure
what Clay was doing in the barn,
and having a toddler underfoot usually
did not help matters. He hurried
out of the kitchen before Leni could
break out the big guns--her lower
lip would tremble just so when she
wanted something--and crossed the
yard to the stables.
Clay stood outside the barn, his
foot resting on the paddock gate,
chatting with another man who could
only be Teo. It was difficult to
see Teo’s face under the shade
of his black hat, but he saw Teo’s
body well enough ... his very nice
body. It was all Ryan could do to
keep from staring.
Though his muscles were much harder
from his work on the ranch, Clay
was built like Ryan--long and lean.
The new hand had a good three inches
and forty pounds on him, all muscle.
The navy shirt he wore stretched
taut over broad shoulders, strained
around powerful biceps. His faded
jeans might as well have been painted
on. They outlined muscular thighs
that only came from years on a horse,
and a tight ass that Ryan had to
tear his gaze away from. It was a
good thing the fence blocked off
part of the view. With a body like
that, Ryan would have been far too
tempted to check out the man’s
package, too.
Clay turned at the sound of Ryan’s
approach, a slow smile spreading
across his face. Teo looked as well,
though his was a mere tilt of his
head in Ryan’s direction. It
was enough to make out a wide mouth,
high cheekbones, and bronzed skin
burnished by the sun. Shadows still
hid his eyes.
“Eleanor let you come out
here all on your own?” Clay
said. “That’s a new one.”
Ryan smiled. Nobody called Leni
by her full name except her father. “I
have long legs. I can move faster
than she can.”
He offered his hand to Clay, and
as soon as he took it, Ryan pulled
him into a hug, slapping his back
affectionately. It was good to see
his brother again. Even if his attention
wasn’t one hundred percent
on Clay. As soon as they stepped
apart, Ryan nodded at the taller
man who watched them without speaking.
“You must be Teo.”
Teo nodded back. Now he could see
the man’s eyes. They were black
and sharp, unblinking as they regarded
Ryan. Beneath his hat, his dark brown
hair was shorn close to his head.
“Oh, right, I forgot you two
haven’t met yet.” Clay
gestured between them. “Ryan,
this is my new hand, Teo Mendez.
Teo, my brother Ryan. I’m putting
him to work here this summer.”
“Can always use a good man.” Teo’s
voice, though deep, was surprisingly
soft-spoken. He took a step away
from the fence, jerking his thumb
toward the stable. “I’ll
go round up Antonio and get out of
your way, then. Have a good night.”
“No,” Ryan blurted,
then smiled self-consciously. “I
mean, Paige wanted Clay to go on
up to the house, if he could. But
I haven’t worked on the ranch
in years. I was thinking maybe you
could help me get reacquainted with
the place.”
It sounded lame to Ryan’s
own ears. He knew nothing could ever
come of it, but he wanted to spend
a little bit more time with this
soft-spoken giant.
Teo looked immediately to Clay,
who shrugged. “If you’re
up to it,” he said. “You
could do a quick tour and then come
up and join us for dinner. You know
Paige. There’ll be plenty of
food.”
Though he didn’t smile, something
warm gleamed in Teo’s eyes. “She’s
always trying to fatten Antonio up.”
“She likes having you two
around.”
Teo glanced at Ryan. “Mind
my boy hanging around?”
“Not at all,” Ryan said
quickly. “I’m a teacher.
Well. I was a teacher.” Teo
didn’t even blink, and Ryan
wondered why he had been moved to
volunteer that information. “Teaching
kids isn’t unlike herding cows.”
A beat passed before Clay slapped
his hand on Ryan’s shoulder. “Don’t
keep him out too late. We have some
catching up to do.”
Ryan nodded. “Right.”
Clay slipped past him to head up
to the house, leaving the two men
alone. Without speaking, Teo turned
on his boot heel to resume his path
to the stable, prompting Ryan to
do a quick double-step in order to
reach his side. He had never considered
himself a small man, but next to
Teo, he might as well have been.
Yet, for his size, Teo barely made
a sound, a surprising grace in his
heavily muscled limbs.
The stable was dim after the brilliance
of the afternoon sun, and Ryan had
to blink a couple times to adjust
to the change in lighting. Teo strode
forward, then halted dead in his
tracks.
Ryan was about to ask what was wrong
when he heard it. A scraping from
the far end of the building, followed
by a horse’s soft whinny.
Teo’s mouth tightened. Without
saying a word, he marched through
the stable, aimed unerringly toward
the sound. Ryan followed and almost
collided with his broad back when
he stopped again, this time to survey
a small boy sticking his hand through
Chief’s stall door.
“What did I tell you, Antonio?”
The boy whirled at the sound of
his father’s quiet query. Except
for the fact that he was skinny as
a rail, he had the same cheekbones
as Teo, the same black eyes. Right
now, they were saucer-sized with
worry at being caught.
“He was hungry.”
“He’s not your horse.”
“Mr. Putnam wouldn’t
want him to starve.”
“Mr. Putnam feeds him just
fine.”
Ryan stepped around Teo and squatted
down on his haunches in front of
Tony. He was still clutching a tiny
handful of hay, and Ryan sympathized
with the boy’s impulse to feed
the horses. He had spent every single
free second of his childhood in the
barn, grooming, feeding, and generally
treating the huge animals like they
were pets.
“Hi, Antonio.” He offered
his hand politely. “My name
is Ryan. I’m Mr. Putnam’s
brother. Do you want to help me feed
my horse?”
“It’s Tony,” the
child blurted. “Nobody calls
me Antonio but Dad.”
“Antonio...”
“Sir. It’s Tony, sir.” He
shook Ryan’s hand. “Do
you have a horse here, too?”
“It’s good to meet you,
Tony. I do have a horse here, too.
He’s the big bay in the back
stall.”
“Is it Charger?”
Ryan smiled. “Yep. It’s
Charger.” He straightened,
but he didn’t let go of Tony’s
smaller hand. “I haven’t
seen him since Christmas. Has Mr.
Putnam been taking good care of him?”
“Dad takes care of all the
horses now, except for Chief.” His
head swiveled toward his father. “Isn’t
that right?”
“That’s part of my job,
yes.” Teo lifted his gaze to
meet Ryan’s. “Charger’s
a beautiful animal, but it’ll
be good to see him getting more exercise.
A horse like that wasn’t built
for grazing.”
Ryan couldn’t help but grimace. “I
know it. I always had the best intentions
of coming up to visit, but John could
never...Well, Charger will get plenty
of exercise this summer.”
“Can I give Charger some hay,
sir?”
“Can you call me Ryan?” Ryan
looked up to Teo and asked in a softer
tone, “Can he call me Ryan?”
For a moment, Ryan thought he was
going to say no. Then Teo nodded.
Permission lit Tony up, and he tugged
at Ryan’s hand, leading him
toward the back stall. He babbled
excitedly about the various horses
they passed, finally breaking away
once they reached Charger.
Teo’s eyes never left Tony
as the boy rushed forward with the
hay.
“I get up at four to ride,” he
said.
Ryan’s brow knitted together.
Why was Teo telling him this? Was
it an invitation? His face cleared,
and a small smile touched his lips. “Four’s
a good time to go riding.”
“Will you help me with the
hay, sir?”
“Yes. But only if you call
me Ryan.”
Tony smiled shyly and looked at
his dad before repeating his question. “Will
you help me with the hay, Ryan?”
“Yes, sir. Here.” Ryan
took an inch from the top of a nearby
bale. “Put your hands out flat.”
Tony obediently held his hands out,
palms open. Ryan placed the hay on
them carefully, then opened the stall
door. Charger immediately approached,
and Ryan put a comforting hand on
Charger’s long neck. Whinnying
in greeting, the horse turned his
attention to the food Tony presented.
“That’s it. Don’t
bend your fingers. You don’t
want Charger to bite them.”
He felt Teo’s gaze heavy on
his back, and had to fight not to
glance over his shoulder to meet
it. Better to focus on the familiar,
the scent of Charger’s stall,
the heat from his shoulder, the young
eyes looking to him for guidance.
“It’s my fault he doesn’t
know more.” Though he was several
feet away, Teo’s soft voice
carried directly to Ryan. “I
kept him away from ranches for too
long.”
“I know plenty, Dad!”
“Not enough.”
“It’s okay,” Ryan
said, still looking at Tony. “I
don’t know enough either, because
I lived in the city for so long.
You can teach me what you know, and
I can show you a bit of what I know.
Does that sound fair?”
Charger finished the hay and whinnied
for more. Tony nodded. “That
sounds fair.”
Ryan glanced up and met Teo’s
eyes. He couldn’t help but
smile. “I promise I won’t
get underfoot.”
“With Antonio, that might
be inevitable.”
“You don’t get underfoot,
do you, Tony?”
“No.” He was all innocent
brown eyes. “Can I give Charger
more hay?”
“No, I think Charger has probably
had enough hay for now.” He
ran his palm over the slope of Charger’s
back, and the bottom of his feet
tingled. He wanted to ride. He wanted
to ride right to the very edge of
the ranch. He wanted to ride until
he lost himself. “But you can
help me saddle him up.”
Teo frowned. “You’re
going to ride now?”
“Yeah.” Charger tossed
his mane. “I think both of
us are feeling a bit anxious, and
there’s about an hour left
before the sun sets.”
Tony looked to his father. “Can
I help?”
Though Teo still seemed unsure,
he nodded anyway. “But then
we have to go wash up. Mr. Putnam
invited us up to the house for supper.”
The smile Tony shot Ryan lit up
his whole face. “Are you going
to eat with us, too?”
“I think Mrs. Putnam will
have my head if I don’t.” Ryan
attached a leading rope to Charger’s
bridle. “Here, take my hand.”
He positioned Tony in front of him,
then let him hold the end of the
rope. Tony looked up and beamed at
him, then began carefully walking
down the long aisle to the tack room
and hitching post. His heart twisted
a little bit. This was how his own
father had taught him how to lead
horses.
Teo followed them outside, hanging
back as Ryan hitched Charger to the
post. His steady eyes tracked every
movement. The man missed nothing,
Ryan realized. Yet, he never said
a word, giving Ryan the opportunity
to instruct Tony as he’d promised
the boy without interruption.
Once Charger was saddled, Tony slipped
around to the opposite side, his
small hand stroking the bay’s
coat. “I get to have my own
horse someday. Dad says so.”
“That sounds about right.
I didn’t have my own horse
until I was a little older than you
are now. I had to share with Mr.
Putnam.” He followed Tony and
watched him pet Charger. Charger
stood still. For the first time,
Ryan noticed the flecks of white
in Charger’s dark brown coat.
He was getting old. “Well,
Tony, thank you. Here.” He
pulled a dollar from his pocket. “That’s
for your help.”
“Antonio.”
The boy’s hand froze in midair,
then withdrew at the small shake
of Teo’s head. “No, thanks,” he
said, backing away. “Have fun
riding.”
“Go wash up,” Teo instructed. “I’ll
be right there.”
“Okay.” He gave a little
wave as he broke into a run. “See
you at dinner, Ryan!”
Teo’s eyes followed him until
he was out of earshot. “He’s
learning. He doesn’t need to
think money is a reward for an education.”
Ryan didn’t think it was a
big deal, but this wasn’t his
classroom, and Tony wasn’t
his student. “Sorry, it’s
the teacher in me. I’m accustomed
to passing out rewards left and right.
I didn’t mean to overstep.”
“Not a problem.” He
paused. “You’re a good
teacher.”
Ryan knew he was a good teacher,
but the soft comment made him warm
with satisfaction. “Thanks.
I think the younger kids are a lot
of fun. Especially when they’re
as polite and smart as Tony. He’s
a bright boy.”
With a nod, Teo turned as if to
follow his son, only to hesitate
and glance back at Ryan. “You’re
welcome to join me in the morning
if you want.”
The fact that Teo had repeated his
invitation just cemented Ryan’s
decision to join him. Maybe spending
time with a widower who had a kid
would be the best thing for him.
Teo had a soothing presence, and
more importantly, there wouldn’t
be any chance at a rebound relationship.
He could admire the other man’s
perfect physique and enjoy his company
with no strings attached.
“I’ll meet you here.
If I’m not up at the house
in time for dinner, tell them to
go ahead and start without me.”
Teo cocked a brow. “You’re
all Clay and Mrs. Putnam have been
talking about. You want me to be
the one to tell them you won’t
be there for supper?”
Ryan glanced across the yard to
the house and grinned. “Well...I
guess that wouldn’t be very
fair to you, would it? I’ll
be there in time.” He hoisted
himself into the saddle, and Charger
pranced and shifted his weight beneath
him. “We’ll just run
out some of this energy.”
“Save some of it for tomorrow.” For
the first time, Teo smiled at him,
quick, blinding. “My rides
are never easy.”
Then he was gone. With a wave that
looked just like his son’s.
Ryan could only stare at his broad
back, his mind stuck on Teo’s
last comment. He felt tight all over,
and Charger pranced more nervously,
easily picking up on Ryan’s
tension. Okay, so, it might be a
bit more difficult to keep his thoughts
and motives pure around Teo. Especially
when he smiled like that. Ryan thought
he would do anything he could to
see that smile one more time.