Directing Claire - Shara Lanel
Chapter One
Devon Marceau flicked the newspaper closed and
laid it on the pockmarked desk in front of him. The cavernous,
near-empty warehouse magnified the sound of the crinkling paper
as well as the tinny voices emanating from the black and white
TV his partner Jim watched. Jim sat on a canvas folding chair
near the large rolling doors at the rear of the building. He
smoked a cigarette and seemed oblivious to the bad reception
as he concentrated on Seinfeld reruns. Devon swore he could
smell the Marlboro smoke from where his desk was, yards away,
near the "movie set" and the side emergency exit.
That was probably the ex-smoker in him longing
for a puff. Times like these, when the waiting for action went
on for days, the craving for a cigarette grew into an obsession.
He glanced at the Motorola cell phone on the Formica top of
the cheap desk, willing it to ring. It didn't. It had been two
weeks now without a bite.
Devon sighed. It was about time to pack it in.
This sting wasn't going to take.
The only thing distracting him from the foul mood
caused by weeks of manpower going to waste was the glossy black
hair cascading down his receptionist's back.
Claire Reed was the one innocent civvie on this
job. She'd been hired from a temp agency to answer the public
phone if it ever rang, which was highly unlikely since they
weren't in any phone book, and to look pretty if anyone ever
came to the "studio" unannounced. The plan was for her to be
long gone before the action started--if it ever started, which
seemed more and more unlikely with each passing day.
Yeah, if only he could see more of Claire from
her perch at the front desk. That would take his mind off Scott
Creighton slipping through his grasp once again. He clenched
his fist and thumped it against the desk. His partner didn't
react to the echoing sound--he was used to Devon's little outbursts.
But the delectable morsel at the front peeked over her shoulder
and gave him a dirty look. Then her big brown eyes went dreamy
and she went back to typing on her laptop.
The warehouse had weird acoustics, causing some
sounds to magnify while others were muffled, like Claire's voice
whenever he heard her talking into her cell phone. Devon had
interviewed her for the job personally, letting her know that
they were waiting for investors, that she didn't have to worry--they'd
pay her no matter what, that she'd likely be bored to tears
so she could bring a book or whatever to pass the time. She'd
looked suspicious at first and had asked a lot of questions--Devon's
answers had remained on the vague side--but then she'd seemed
gleeful. He later discovered her secret passion. During her
second day on the job, she'd brought in her laptop and set to
typing.
"What are you working on?" Devon had asked, glancing
at the door beyond her, still antsy that Creighton might show
up unannounced before they were ready.
"The great American novel."
"Huh?" He turned back to her. God, he itched to
run his fingers through her luxurious hair.
She laughed, a light, feminine laugh that stirred
his blood. "A romance really. I like happy endings."
Devon shook his head at the memory, coming back
to the too-dull present. He didn't believe in happy endings,
any more than he believed in the horoscopes on the back page
of the paper in front of him. He'd known too many bad people
in his life. But he didn't tell Claire that. He didn't want
to take that light out of her eyes, and she had continued typing,
day after day, filling up pages.
One evening when he'd said good-night, she'd been
smiling, almost laughing. "I can't believe I'm getting paid
to work on my book. Thank you so much!"
At least one person was happy with this waiting
game.
Picking up the paper, he glanced at the horoscope
section just to pass the time. The words came into focus. He
was a Gemini, born June 5. His horoscope read: "Today you'll
struggle with the dual sides of your Gemini personality. Loosen
up and enjoy life. A phone call is a blessing and a curse. Venus
smiles on you. Love is coming your way."
What a load of crap! Vague statements that any
susceptible person could bend to fit their life. Well, not him.
That damn phone call was what he'd been waiting two weeks for,
and if it didn't come today, they might as well wrap up this
gig. And forget love--who needed the aggravation? Hearts and
flowers certainly didn't fit into his life, when he was undercover
half the time and in danger the rest.
Claire rose from her chair and stretched, turning
as she did so, giving him a nice view of perky breasts under
a tight pink sweater buttoned to the very top. He so wanted
to undo two, maybe three of those pearly buttons, to see the
creamy olive skin beneath.
She walked toward him, hips swaying, gray skirt
touching the tops of her knees, sensible low heels clicking
on the cement floor. What was the matter with him that the librarian
look stirred his libido?
"Mr. Marceau," she began.
"Devon, please."
She blushed. She had almond-shaped brown eyes,
light brown lashes, and arched brows, but the facial feature
Devon couldn't keep his eyes off of was her luscious red lips.
They were the most perfectly shaped lips he'd ever seen in his
life and all he could imagine was covering them with his mouth
and sliding them open with his tongue.
"Okay. Devon." She smiled. "I was thinking of
ordering a pizza for the three of us. My treat. You all have
been so great, letting me do my writing while paying me. It's
been heaven. I'd like to give something back to you."
Give him something? How about a nice, deep,
lingering kiss? No? Devon smiled. He couldn't for a moment
fathom how typing for hours hunched over a cramped keyboard
and staring at a glaring computer screen could be heaven. He'd
hated every last one of his composition and literature classes,
and it showed in each and every report he'd had to write for
the Bureau for the past fifteen years. Many of those reports
had concerned Creighton and how he'd evaded arrest again, usually
through a legal loophole the Bureau had never seen coming.
God, he wanted that bastard so bad that his mouth
watered every time he thought they had a viable sting in place.
And he'd felt gut-punched every time something had screwed up
the takedown. The man was too damn smart, as were his lawyers,
and operatives were too damn human.
Well, for now his mouth watered at the thought
of a greasy pizza shared with tasty Claire Reed.
"A pizza, huh? You don't have to treat us, you
know. Tax write-offs and all that." Devon grinned.
"I want to. Really. This has been like a vacation
for me." She twisted her fine-boned hands as she stood in front
of him. He seemed to make her nervous for some reason, but he
chalked it up to the absurdity of the workplace. She was alone
with two men in a hulking warehouse where no one ever called.
That had to seem weird, even to the most composed woman.
A shrill ring pierced the awkward moment. Devon
looked down at his desk. His cell trilled again. Damn. Creighton,
it had to be Creighton. This number had been set up specifically
for this operation and had only been given to Creighton's henchmen.
"Are you going to answer your phone?" Claire asked
after the third ring.
Devon reached for it, trying to keep the tremor
of excitement out of his hand. He inclined his head toward the
rear of the building and saw that Jim had hopped off his chair
and was stalking across the cement floor. Devon flipped open
the cell. "Hello, Marceau here."
"Marceau, this is Mr. Creighton's assistant, Warren.
Mr. Creighton has taken an interest in your operation."
Devon let out his breath slowly. He wanted to
shout, "He certainly took his damn time, didn't he?" but of
course it wouldn't do to offend the man. No, he had to keep
his cool, say nothing wrong, and set this gig up. The Bureau
had already briefed the agents who would serve as actors. The
sound equipment and cameras were in place on the "stage" here
at the warehouse. The scripts were in his desk. Jim had even
taken a crash course in cinematography, while Devon had read
up on Hitchcock and Spielberg.
Breathe deep. Say the right thing. They just needed
a day, minimum, to pull in the agents and get Claire out of
here, then they were ready to roll. Calmly, he said, "I'm glad
to hear that. What sort of interest exactly?"
Creighton was involved in selling drugs and weapons.
He was also suspected of funding terrorists, but little was
known about that end of his operation. The Bureau hoped to use
this sting to get him on money laundering, and to perhaps scrounge
up information on his other operations. It was a slow-going
and frustrating process. They only gleaned a tiny speck of new
information each time they worked a sting. What kept Devon going
was knowing they'd take the man down in the end.
Creighton's weakness was porn stars. He always
had an actress or aspiring actress clinging to his elbow whenever
he was photographed in public. Many of those bimbettes had turned
up dead, raped and mutilated. Other than coincidence, nothing
could tie the murders back to Creighton, and that fact twisted
Devon's gut the most.
"Mr. Creighton would like to view your set-up."
The voice on the phone had a Guido accent. "And if he likes
what he sees, he might be willing to invest a mil or two."
"A mil or two. Whoa." Devon feigned shock, as
any penny-ante director would, at the thought of that much money.
"That sounds perfect. Would he like to come by next week? I'll
make sure we're shooting one of the more interesting
scenes."
"Mr. Creighton wishes to come by this afternoon."
Alarm bells went off in Devon's mind as Jim leaned
in, trying to hear the conversation. Claire had walked a discreet
distance away. He hoped she hadn't ordered the pizza yet. "Please
give Mr. Creighton my apologies, but we're only filming a couple
of boring scenes today. Our starlet isn't here..."
"Mr. Creighton said today or never. He's very
adamant about that." Warren stumbled over the word adamant.
Obviously not his personal choice.
"How about this evening? I could probably get
Sasha and Anton here by then. I want to put our best foot forward,
you know."
"Mr. Creighton is on his way now. He'll see you
in twenty minutes." The phone clicked dead.
Holy shit! Time for a full scale panic attack.
Devon stared at the phone, rerunning the conversation in his
mind and trying to think of what he could have said to make
that go better. Damn. They were so screwed.
"What'd he say?" Jim asked, sliding his butt onto
the desk.
Devon didn't waste time explaining. He speed-dialed
his boss as he tried not to hyperventilate. Should they split
immediately? The danger was not only in exposing the sting,
but in finding themselves filled with 9 mm bullets when Creighton
arrived and saw no movie production going on.
Devon's boss answered the phone with a gruff,
"Yeah?"
"Phil, he's on his way over now."
Jim's eyes widened to saucers as he glanced meaningfully
around the empty warehouse. Devon ignored him.
"What? You didn't tell me you'd already set this
up. Are Sasha and Anton there?"
"No one's here. We just got the call and he's
coming now. It wasn't negotiable."
"Well, shit, Devon."
"Exactly, sir."
"What are you prepared to do? When exactly will
he get there?"
"Less than twenty minutes."
Phil Pembrook, Special Agent in Charge, swore
profusely. "That's not even enough time for you to evacuate.
You're going to have to wing it. What can you do? Who do you
have?"
"I have Jim and the girl we hired from the temp
agency."
"How does she look?"
He glanced at Claire, whose brows raised in response.
He was glad she hadn't heard his boss's question. Devon spoke
low into the phone. "She looks good, but she's a civvie. I think
we need to get her out of here."
"No time. Use her. Tell her it's for her country.
More importantly, tell her it'll save her life."
"That's not fair. It's not her problem."
"It is now. Get over it."
"She might just bolt."
"She can't bolt. Your lives depend on it, not
to mention the success of this operation."
The tick-tock of the clock boomed in Devon's head
as he folded the cell phone closed.
"Well?" Jim was a young agent with a receding
hairline and cleft chin. He was deceptively strong for his short,
wiry frame. He also had a wife and new baby at home. Yes, he'd
known he was putting his life at risk by working for the Bureau,
but he did it anyway. However, that baby hadn't signed on to
lose a daddy, that was certain, and Devon wasn't going to let
it. They still had a chance to make this operation fly and catch
Creighton. That gold nugget alone would have been enough of
a carrot if Devon would only be putting experienced agents at
risk, but Claire...
* * * *
Claire approached her employer with caution. That
phone call had triggered something, because now the two men
kept glancing at her with concern and speculation in their eyes.
What was up with that?
She pasted a smile on her face. "So shall I order
the pizza or have plans changed? I can take a later lunch if
you need me to." She certainly didn't want to jeopardize this
job over food. She'd originally doubted she'd ever see a paycheck
from such a fly-by-night operation, but the temp agency hadn't
placed her in a month and things were looking very tight at
home, so she'd taken the chance. Plus her daily horoscope had
said to take the risk. Not that she placed stock in such things,
but sometimes she needed a little mental reinforcement. She'd
crowed happily when her first paycheck had cleared. Somehow
the men were managing to pay her even though the one man watched
TV every day while appearing to guard the one entrance, and
the other man read the paper and glared at his cell phone.
Claire had explored the set the first couple of
days. Two wheeled tripods held mid-size video cameras. An Oriental
rug covered thick black wires that wove all over the floor.
They seemed to be attached to a couple of microphones skillfully
hidden on the set. Devon said he directed movies, which seemed
totally glamorous to Claire. However, the people she'd seen
on the set besides Devon and Jim had arrived for the first couple
of days and had huddled together talking in low voices and glancing
at the doors. They'd been dressed in sequins and low-ride jeans,
and both men and women had been stunningly gorgeous, but no
acting had been done and on the fourth day they had all mysteriously
disappeared. Claire had been too shy to ask where they'd gone
or when Devon planned to shoot the actual movie. She wasn't
paid to oversee his job, so she kept to herself and wrote her
book. Still, she'd been curious about it all.
"Um." Devon stood up and circled the desk. "There's
been a change in plans. An emergency."
"Oh, okay. Can I help?"
Devon thumbed his lip and cocked his head while
Jim sat up straighter. "Yes, you can help," her boss said in
his low, sexy voice.
"Anything you need." She smiled again, though
she sensed that maybe the request was going to be bigger than
working late or going out for coffee. She suddenly remembered
the horoscope she'd read over her morning coffee. It had read:
"Trusting someone will give you what you need the most. Be brave
and brazen, and you will get the job done."
Devon placed his hands on her shoulders, which
was the first time he'd touched her since she'd gained employment
here. She wasn't prepared for the zing that charged through
her body or for the intensity of his blue eyes. "Claire, I need
you to do something that is way beyond the call of duty.
I can't explain it all now and it's going to seem crazy to you,
but I wouldn't ask it if it wasn't extremely urgent."
She locked her knees as her stomach lurched from
his tone. Be brave, be brave. "What is it?" she whispered.
He removed his hands from her shoulders, and her
skin grew cold from the absence. One hand reached into his back
pocket and pulled out a wallet. He flipped it open and waded
past far too many pieces of paper, plastic, and a couple of
dollar bills before he finally found what he was looking for.
This he showed to her. "Jim and I are FBI agents. We don't have
our normal badges because this is an undercover operation and
we could be searched."
Claire reached for the official-looking piece
of paper, but he shook his head. It was un-laminated, but it
had his name and a badge number and the letters "FBI" with the
address of the local Bureau office on it. Claire happened to
recognize the address because she'd visited there once for research
on a story she'd been plotting.
"For real?" she asked, waiting for the punch line.
Jim moved to flank Devon. "For real," he said.
He pulled out his ID as well and gave her a moment to glance
at it, before tucking it back into the flotsam in his wallet.
She could see how it wouldn't be noticed during a simple perusal
of the wallet. Devon did the same.
"What do you need me to do?"
Devon sighed. "You're not going to like it."
He took her hand--that alone sent chills through
Claire's body--guiding her to the set in the rear corner of
the warehouse, away from the doors and windows. Jim followed,
then started clicking on the high-powered lights, angling them
towards the bed and couch. That's what the set consisted of
outside of the technical paraphernalia: a king-size four poster
bed with a sumptuous gold satin bedspread and black silk sheets--she'd
touched them during her earlier explorations, imagining what
it would be like to sleep on such fine bedding--and a large
sectional couch shaped like a G. One end consisted of a chaise
lounge. The cushions were plump and covered in that new fake
suede material that Claire loved for both its practicality and
comfort. There was also a low square coffee table. The squat
legs supported a teak wood frame with a glass panel in the center.
A rice-paper screen sat further way, beyond the border of the
Oriental rug. Claire got the impression that it wasn't meant
to be filmed.
Her hand tingled from Devon's grip. She'd had
fantasies about this man, her employer. In fact, he had probably
worked his way into the romance she was writing, especially
his blue eyes, which stared at her in her dreams, arousing her
and sending shivers through her body. He was definitely a man
to have a crush on--tall, trim, chiseled jaw and cheeks, five
o'clock shadow even in the morning, olive tan skin. She could
eat him for lunch instead of the pizza. She bit her lip to keep
her thoughts from straying further in that dangerous direction.
Devon pulled her to the side of the set near two
production trunks that lined the wall. Then he took her second
hand into his grip as well, turning her to face him completely,
capturing her with his eyes.
"Claire, I need you to act."
"Act how?" She could read lines from a script.
That would be easy enough, even if she were less than convincing.
She'd tried out for a few school plays and hadn't been accepted
for any, but that was just school. Those were more popularity
contests than anything, not a sign that she sucked as an actress,
right? Of course, her mind had blanked each time she'd walked
on stage, whether to sing, dance, or read lines. She'd stood
there mute until the titters from fellow students had reminded
her to leave the stage.
"You need to be my leading lady, okay? I'm the
director and the actor for this scene. Jim's the cameraman.
Can you be a brainless sex object just for this afternoon?"
He grinned for just a moment, pulling an answering smile from
her. Then he was serious again. "I'll try not to take it too
far, but the most important thing you need to do is follow my
lead. Do what I say, because our lives depend on it. Never break
out of your role no matter how uncomfortable, okay?" His eyes
seared hers with their gaze. "Never."
"Um, I think you're scaring me a bit."
"Claire, I would never ask you to do this if this
wasn't a desperate situation, but Creighton is on his way now.
If he thinks we're fakes, for even a moment, he'll kill us all.
It wouldn't even faze him."
"What?" Claire's knees gave out and she nearly
fell, but Devon's strong arms caught her and helped her to sit
on the top of one of the trunks.
"I really don't have time to explain more. We
need to pretend we've been at this all morning." He opened the
other trunk and pulled out a baby-doll style negligee followed
by a pair of dinky thong panties and a lace bra, all a matching
shade of fire-engine red. "Put these on." He pointed to the
rice-paper screen. "Hurry." He continued to riffle through the
trunk without looking at her.
"I can't wear these!" Her voice was a bit louder
and higher than she would have liked, causing Jim to glance
her way from his place by the tripod-mounted camera.
The roar of an engine filled the warehouse. Then
they heard doors slamming. "Shit!" Devon slammed the trunk closed
and stripped off his shirt. "Now. Put them on now."
"I can't."
He gripped her arms and squeezed. "Do you want
to die?" His eyes were deadly serious, almost panicked. She
wanted to question him, but she couldn't doubt what was evident
in his eyes. "Hurry. Leave your clothes behind the screen. Get
on the bed immediately, and follow my lead. We just have to
get through this, okay? Then you never have to see us again."
Claire acted immediately as a knock sounded on
the outer door, booming through the warehouse. Jim cocked his
head in question at Devon. Devon went to sit on the bed and
nodded. Claire dashed behind the screen. She'd never undressed
faster. Clothes fell to the floor. Cold air struck her skin.
At least she'd showered and shaved this morning instead of waiting
for her usual relaxing evening bath before bed. Still, she never
wore thongs. The bra lifted and separated her breasts, but the
lace was so sparse that her nipples poked through and the light
pink circles around them showed as well. She slid the baby doll
gown over her head and pulled it into place. There was no mirror.
She wished Devon had thought to hand her stockings. She had
no doubt there were some in that trunk. It was a crazy thought,
but at least those would have been a bit more covering.
She'd never realized how chilly the warehouse
was until she stood half-naked in it with goosebumps running
up her legs. She tried to see through the screen. What was happening
on the other side? Why was she dressed this way, and could she
somehow just slip out the back door away from these lunatics?
She touched the dank brick wall behind her. No escape there.
"Now!" Devon's voice warned her that she'd better
come out from behind the screen. She tiptoed out and he waved
frantically to get her over to the bed, while Jim spoke to someone
at the front door, someone hidden from Claire's view. She crossed
her arms over her chest and walked toward the hulking bed.
"Come on. Right next to me," Devon said. He patted
the bed and Claire sat down. Why did he get to stay in jeans?
Because his chest was to die for. She salivated as she stared
at his broad, lean pecs. Flat brown nipples asked to be licked.
He had just the right amount of curly brown chest hair. He exuded
masculinity.
Claire felt the warmth of his denim-clad thigh
the moment she sat down, but she tried to focus her mind on
the role she needed to play. "Is there a script?"
"There is a script, but you don't have time to
learn it. Hell, I didn't even memorize it, because I wasn't
supposed to be one of the actors." He swore again, watching
Jim and the men entering the door. He rubbed a hand over his
chin, then turned and seemed to notice Claire seated next to
him for the first time. Really notice.
"Holy shit." He looked right down her cleavage.
The baby doll gown was sheer and trimmed with satin strings.
It didn't hide the lace bra or thong underneath. Instead it
accentuated them. Claire knew she had a nice flat stomach and
ample chest, which she attributed mostly to genetics, but she
still didn't consider herself gorgeous or anything. She was
too introverted and shy, and she lacked a flair for make-up
or fashion. The characters in the stories she wrote knew how
to dress at least, even if she didn't.
Jim led the newcomers through the warehouse to
the set. One man walked slowly, with a limp and a cane.
"This is it." Devon gripped her hand hard. His
voice was low, so the approaching men wouldn't hear him. "These
guys are dangerous. Think "Sopranos", okay? If they think we're
faking anything, we're dead, got it?"
"Devon?"
"Huh?"
"What kind of film are we making?"
Heart's Desire - MacKenzie Reed
Chapter One
"Okay Cass, it's your turn now."
Cassidy DeWitt turned to her friend, Joanna Danes.
"What do you mean it's my turn? My turn for what?" Cassidy frowned;
she had no idea what they were talking about. It was her twenty-sixth
birthday and her two best friends, Joanna and Sarah, had taken
her to a carnival. The bright lights, the rides, the noise all
brought back happy childhood memories of trips to the county
fair with her parents and her brother, George.
A hand waved in front of her face, drawing her
back to the present. "What?"
Joanna shook her head and rolled her eyes. "It's
your turn to see the fortune teller, Madame Zorkoff."
Cassidy sputtered. "Madame Zorkoff?" She couldn't
help it. The name tickled her funny bone and a round of laughter
ensued, catching all three of them in its wake. A few tears
later and gasps for breath, the girls quieted down and once
again Cassidy was told it was her turn.
"Oh, come on, you guys. You know as well as I
do it's all a bunch of crap." With a squeaky voice Cassidy said,
"You will meet a tall, dark, and handsome stranger who will
sweep you off your feet and take you away to live happily ever
after." She snorted. "Like I really want to hear that after
the fiasco with Brian.
All three girls groaned at the mention of Brian's
name, Cassidy more than the others. "The guy was more concerned
with his looks than anything else."
Sarah nodded. "You're right, Cass. He certainly
was at that." Sarah shared a look with Joanna and Cassidy started
to sweat. Whenever those two shared a look, it always
meant trouble for her. Well, forewarned was forearmed. This
time she wasn't going to argue with them. She would go into
the tent and let Madame Zorkoff read her palm, then she'd smile,
say thank you, and leave without looking back.
Joanna opened her mouth to speak but Cassidy forestalled
her. "Let's get it over with, shall we?" Cassidy marched by
the two of them, leaving them speechless. She smirked. Let them
chew on that for a while. She reached the tent opening and was
about to enter when she realized they weren't following. In
fact, they hadn't moved from their spot.
She quirked her eyebrow questioningly, "So are
ya'll coming or what?"
"Sorry Cass, but you have to go in there alone.
That's the rules." Joanna pointed to a small sign attached to
the left side of the opening.
"Fine." Cassidy stomped into the tent and found
the fortuneteller sitting at her tiny table with her crystal
ball. The lady appeared to be staring intently into the crystal
as though she could see something other than clouded glass.
"Are you just going to stand there all night or
are you going to come and sit down." The woman's voice was deep
and husky like a smoker's.
"This is stupid," Cassidy muttered beneath her
breath and turned to walk out when the woman stopped her.
"Cassidy DeWitt! Come and sit down."
She turned back and faced the woman. "How did
you know my name?"
The fortuneteller never looked up but motioned
with ring-covered fingers for Cassidy to sit in the chair across
from her. Cassidy debated on whether or not to simply walk out
or do as the lady said. She shrugged. What the hell, she might
as well let the charlatan go through her spiel. It wasn't going
to change the fact that she had no love life of any kind to
speak of. She could count on one hand how many times in the
last six months she'd had sex. She sat down and waited for Madame
Zorkoff's next move.
Madame Zorkoff closed her eyes and swayed back
and forth, humming a strange tune before opening her eyes and
focusing on Cassidy.
"You are not a believer." Madame frowned.
Cassidy ran her sweaty palms down her jeans. Damn!
This lady made her feel like a naughty child. Of course she
wasn't a believer. Everybody knew that fortunetellers gave vague
answers that sometimes coincided perfectly with someone's life.
It was how they made their living. She would never begrudge
Madame Zorkoff for the way she provided for herself and quite
possibly her family. Didn't she work at Perish Advertising for
that very reason? Except she was the only one to provide for,
there was no one else. Not since... No! She broke off
that thought. She would not think of him, not now, not ever.
"Give me your hands." Madame Zorkoff stated, holding
her hands out, palms up.
Taking a deep breath, Cassidy placed her hands
in Madame Zorkoff's and gasped at the slight tingling. She tried
to jerk her hands free but Madame wouldn't allow it.
"Your heart's desire awaits right outside the
door. All you have to do is believe in your heart and you will
find it." With those words, Madame released Cassidy's hands
and leaned back. "Go now. That is all I have for you."
Okay! This lady was either crazy or her
friends had put her up to this. Shoot! She mentally smacked
her head. That was it! Joanna and Sarah must have worked out
a deal with Madame Zorkoff. Cassidy laughed and shook her head.
"How much did my friends pay you to say that?
Which one of them came up with that bunch of bull? Did Joanna
tell you that today was my birthday?"
Madame shook her head. "I already knew that. You
were born under the sign of the twins, a Gemini. You are stubborn,
but loyal to a fault. You enjoy your work, but hope someday
to move down another path. You have loved only one man in your
life and his leaving left a hole in your heart."
Cassidy stiffened. How did this woman know about
him? She'd never told a soul.
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"Be very careful, Cassidy. You should never take
lightly what the spirits say to you." Madame rose from her chair,
and in a swish of skirts and bangles she was gone.
Cassidy sat there stunned. She hadn't meant to
make the Madame feel bad. Standing, she dug into her jeans pocket,
pulled out a ten-dollar bill, and tossed it on the table. Hopefully
that would make up for her faux pas. After exiting the
tent, her gaze wandered over the area looking for Joanna and
Sarah. She spotted them sitting at a picnic table with three
guys. The guys' backs were to her so she took a look at the
merchandise. All three were dressed in jeans and two of them
wore t-shirts while the other one wore a long-sleeved denim
shirt. He had the sleeves rolled up, showing off his powerful
forearms. She let her gaze drift down over his butt and all
but drooled. It was a nice butt, one that made you want to kiss
it, or bite it.
Cassidy bit her bottom lip. It so reminded her
of Nicholas, a man she hadn't thought about in years. But now
as she stood admiring this mystery man's butt, Cassidy was transported
back to a happier time in her life. One night in particular
stood out in her mind ... it was the night she'd loved and lost
Nicholas.
"Cass, baby if we don't stop now I won't be
able to," Nicholas murmured against her lips while his hands
touched her in places that ached to be touched. She groaned
against his lips when his hand covered her breast. Her nipple
tightened to pebble hardness. Wanting more of his touch she
arched against him, pressing her breast firmly against his palm.
This time he groaned.
He jerked his mouth free from hers, his breathing
choppy and harsh sounding. "I want to make love to you, Cass."
He gave her a quick, hard kiss. "But this isn't the right place
or the right time." He moved away and began pacing back and
forth in front of her. His hands dangled by his sides, clenching
and unclenching, a testament to the fact of how much he wanted
her.
On shaky legs Cass moved away from the tree
and took the two steps forward that would put her right in Nicholas's
path. He was so caught up in his thoughts that he nearly knocked
her down. Instead, his hands reached out and wrapped around
her upper arms, holding her up.
She looked up into his handsome face and knew
without a doubt that she would love this man forever and that
if they consummated that love, here and now, it would be okay.
She slid her hands beneath his shirt and caressed his heated
skin. His forehead dropped to rest on hers bringing his mouth
within kissing distance.
"Cass?"
Rising on her tiptoes, Cassidy brushed her
lips against Nicholas's firm ones and whispered, "I love you,
Nick. Make love to me."
For a moment she thought he was going to turn
her down, so she wasn't prepared for him to sweep her off her
feet and carry her to the back of his pickup truck. He set her
on her feet beside the truck and walked to the cab of the truck
to retrieve a blanket he'd placed there earlier. He laid it
carefully in the bed and then turned to face Cassidy.
"Are you sure about this, Cass? I can wait
until you're ready."
"I'm ready now." To prove her point Cassidy
lifted her red tank top over her head and tossed it in the truck.
Nick did the same with his blue t-shirt. They both undressed,
their eyes never leaving the other for fear it was all a dream.
Once they were both naked, Nick pulled Cassidy into his arms
and lowered his mouth to hers. She was waiting. She opened her
mouth beneath him and shivered when his tongue slid inside her
mouth and explored.
Right there under the stars, Cass and Nick
made love for the first time. He was a gentle lover, taking
great care with Cass's body and her trust. With a quick, hard
thrust Nick took her virginity and her heart.
"I love you, Cass. Always."
Cassidy came back to the present with sadness
in her heart and tears in her eyes. Those were the last words
Nick had spoken before he'd up and disappeared. For days and
months, Cassidy had gone to his house, talked to his boss, his
co-workers, and learned nothing. It was as though Nick had fallen
off the face of the Earth.
She'd lost her heart on that night and never gotten
it back. Oh yeah, she dated over the years and actually thought
she'd found Mr. Right. All he'd really wanted was to get her
in the sack. Thank goodness, she'd figured it out before it
had gotten that far.
Every now and then her thoughts would drift to
Nick and she wondered what he was doing now. Was he married?
A father? That brought a sharp pain to her heart. She wanted
kids. Had always dreamed of having two or three children. The
only problem was that Nick was their father in the picture.
She sighed. Enough of the melancholy crap! It
was her birthday and she was damn well going to enjoy it. Head
held high, Cassidy started toward her friends and the three
good-looking hunks in skin-tight blue jeans.
She'd almost reached them when Joanna called out.
"There you are. Come meet our new friends."
Cassidy nodded and turned to smile at the guys
who were now facing her. Her smile quickly faded when she caught
sight of the one that she'd been drooling over. The one whose
butt she'd wanted to bite. Her eyes widened in shock. Oh my
God! It was Nicholas Kinkaide and he was looking too damn fine
for words.
His eyes clung to hers, watching and waiting for
her reaction at seeing him again after three years. Instant
heat flooded her body at his bold stare. Cassidy inwardly cursed
her body's reaction to this man. Even after all these years,
her body still yearned for his touch. Damn his miserable hide.
And judging by the smirk on his face he knew it too.
"Hello, Cass," his deep, sensual voice reached
into the dark recesses of her mind and brought them quickly
into the light. She'd almost forgotten what the sound of his
voice did to her, to her secret places. Even now her womanhood
pulsed to life, swelling, moistening just for him.
Well, he wasn't getting off that easy. She wanted
an explanation and she wanted one now. She threw back her head
and placed her hands on her hips. "Well, well. If it isn't Nicholas
Kinkaide." Sarcasm dripped from every word, but inside she was
shaking. Just saying his name brought a secret joy to her heart.
Cassidy thought she would never see him again. Yet here he stood,
not three feet from her, with his chestnut hair blowing in the
slight breeze and a soft smile meant only for her.
"How've you been?"
His words made her see red. "How have I been?
That's all you have to say after three years? How have
I been?" She stomped toward him and stopped directly in front
of him. Tilting her head back she looked him dead in the eye
and said, "How in the hell do you think I've been? And
what gives you the right to ask me that anyway?"
Someone cleared their throat and it was then Cassidy
realized they had an audience. Damn! One look at Nick and she'd
forgotten all about Joanna and Sarah. What they must think.
Here she stood toe-to-toe with a guy she knew intimately and
they haven't a clue. Cassidy never told her friends about Nick.
The pain was too great at the time, and later on? Well, it just
never seemed like the right time. And now wasn't either.
She turned to them. "I'll explain later. Don't
ask me anything right now, okay?" A tear filled her eye. "I'm
going home. Thanks for a wonderful birthday." Cassidy didn't
wait for a response. She knew they would understand. However,
she also knew them well enough to know that come nine in the
morning they would be pounding on her door demanding an explanation.
She'd just reached her car when a hand grabbed
her, bringing her to a halt. Cassidy took a deep shuddering
breath. She knew that touch like her own. She glanced back over
her shoulder and found herself staring into Nick's sad eyes.
The fortuneteller's words came back to her in
haunting clarity. Your heart's desire awaits right outside
the door. All you have to do is believe in your heart and you
will find it. If Nick was her heart's desire then she was
in one heap of trouble.
She asked the one question she dreaded knowing
the answer to but needing to know. "Why did you leave me and
why did you come back after all this time?
* * * *
Nick couldn't get over how beautiful Cassidy had
become. She was even more gorgeous than he imagined her, and
he'd definitely imagined a lot over the years. His dreams had
been all about her, the way she looked at him with love in her
eyes, and even now, when she was mad as hell at him, she never
looked more beautiful or sexy.
Hearing her words, the tears in her eyes, nearly
broke his heart. How could he explain that he hadn't left because
he wanted to, but because he'd had no choice? The night they
made love had been the best and worst night of his life. After
walking Cassidy home and sharing a sweet, hot kiss, Nick headed
for home, deciding to take a short cut through the alley behind
Barley's Pub. That had been a huge mistake and the beginning
of his nightmare because he'd inadvertently walked right into
witnessing a murder.
Thank God the killer hadn't seen him. Nick had
quietly left the alleyway, run straight to the Maplesville,
Georgia police station, and told Detective Dave Helms the whole
story, never realizing the danger he was putting himself or
his family in. It wasn't until later that Nick learned just
what that visit to the police station would cost him ... everything.
His life, Cassidy, and everything he'd ever known was snatched
away in that one instant as Nick was sent away to live in the
Witness Protection Program.
So many times he'd picked up the phone to call
Cassidy and tell her why he'd left only to sit it back down
without making the call. The only consolation he had was the
guy would die in prison and he could return home. Unfortunately,
it had taken him three years to return home and now it might
just be too late.
"Why, Nick? Why did you leave me?"
He heard the words and the question behind it,
but he also heard the hurt Cassidy had suffered over his abrupt
disappearance. He opened his mouth to speak and then closed
it, wondering how to explain what had happened three years ago.
He wasn't looking for pity, just her understanding and forgiveness.
"Nick?"
Hearing her call his name brought back memories
of that night with sensual clarity. She'd called his name while
climaxing, triggering his own orgasm. God, he'd missed her over
the years. Missed kissing her plump, sweet lips that tasted
like peaches, running his hands over her soft feminine curves
and learning where she liked to be touched and caressed. His
body responded to his thoughts and Cassidy's nearness. His manhood
hardened, lengthening in his jeans. Jeans that were now too
damn tight. Nick drew in a deep breath and let it out slowly,
hoping to calm his raging libido. He hadn't been with a woman
in a while and his body was letting him know.
He gazed down at Cassidy and smothered the urge
to close the distance between their lips and take hers in a
sweet kiss of exploration. He brushed his thumb across her bottom
lip and was rewarded with a gasp. He couldn't take it. He had
to kiss her just once.
"I'm sorry, but I've got to kiss you." Then he
suited action to words and brushed his lips across hers in a
feathery kiss. Her lips were soft and dewy beneath his and he
knew he should stop right there, but he wanted more. Nick wanted
to slide his tongue inside her mouth and fully taste her. Because
once he told her he couldn't explain his leaving, Nick knew
he wouldn't be kissing those sweet lips again.
He glided his tongue over the seam of her lips.
"Open for me and let me in." For a minute he thought she would
ignore his request, but then her lips parted and he sank his
tongue inside her, groaning at the pleasure that coursed through
his veins. He wrapped his arms around and tugged her closer
to his body, as close as he physically could. Every inch of
her body was now plastered up against his and he knew without
a doubt that she could feel his erection pressing insistently
against her lower abdomen. There was no way in hell she could
miss it.
Every nerve ending in Nick's body was on fire.
His brain synapses were firing and he was about to lose control.
All it took was one taste of Cassidy and the night they'd made
love came rushing back. Her soft cries, the sharp little nails
digging into his back as he pumped slowly into her, and her
whispered, "I love you" at the point of climax.
Even now Cass whimpered in his mouth, her tongue
dancing with his. All he could think about was stripping their
clothes off, taking her down to the ground and fucking her like
there was no tomorrow. It was that thought that had him pulling
away from her sweet lips. He closed his eyes and dragged in
a much-needed breath to calm his raging body. Unfortunately,
it didn't do too much for his hard-on. His shaft was rock hard
and demanding appeasement.
A bit more under control, Nick opened his eyes
and looked down at Cassidy. "I love you, Cass."
Her eyes widened in shock, then narrowed. She
jerked from his arms, took a step back and slapped the hell
out of him. Nick rubbed his face with his hand. Shit! He hadn't
meant to say that out loud, yet. But hell, it was the truth,
and he wasn't about to take it back now.
"Listen. I know you probably don't believe that
right now, but it's true. For the last three years, you were
all I thought about. No matter where I was or what I was doing,
you were always there. I remember everything, Cass. Everything."
He waited for her to respond to his words. He wanted to hear
her say she'd never stopped loving him, but judging from the
murderous look in her beautiful green eyes, that wasn't going
to happen. So he braced himself for the storm he could see coming.
It didn't take long.
"Really." Sarcasm dripped from that one word.
"You sure have a funny way of showing it. You never called,
you never wrote." She advanced toward him. "Hell, you never
so much as told me goodbye. You fucked me and then left
town in the dark of night." Her face turned red with anger.
Nick said nothing. What could he say? He could tell her she
was wrong and that he wanted to tell her goodbye but neither
the police nor his parents would let him.
"I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you." He reached
for her again but she took another step back, avoiding his touch.
Hurt and disappointed, Nick let his hands drop to his sides
and simply stood there looking at her.
"Yeah right," she snorted, shifting her gaze away
from his. "It doesn't matter anymore. I got over it," her eyes
returned to him, "and you."
He watched her walk away, his heart crumbling
to pieces. What was he going to do if she truly didn't love
him anymore?
"Are you going to give up so easily?" A feminine
voice from behind asked.
Nick turned to face the woman, figuring it was
one of Cass's friends, but instead he found the fortuneteller.
He glanced back over his shoulder when he heard a car start
and watched Cass pull out of the parking lot without so much
as a backward glance.
"You must fight for what you want, for what is
your heart's desire. It is the woman, is it not?"
He nodded. "Yeah, it's her." He ran his hand through
his short hair. "I loved her, hell, I still love her, but she
won't give me a chance."
The woman scoffed. "She is Gemini. What did you
expect? She is stubborn, no?"
He grinned. "Yes, she is stubborn."
"Tell her the truth."
"I tried, but she won't listen."
The old woman shook her head and clucked her tongue.
"No! Tell her the truth. The truth about what truly happened
that night so long ago."
He was momentarily speechless in his surprise,
then suspicion set in. "What are you talking about?"
She narrowed her eyes. "You know what I am talking
about. You must tell her that you left because your life, as
well as those you loved, were in danger."
Nick was flabbergasted. How in the hell did this
woman know about his reasons for leaving? No one except his
parents knew, and they sure wouldn't tell a soul, let alone
a carnival fake.
He took a step closer and lowered his voice. "How
do you know about that night?"
She shrugged. "It doesn't matter how I know, Nicholas,
what matters is that Cassidy's heart is still in pieces and
it's time you picked them up." The old woman touched his arm
and smiled.
"Go to her and tell her the truth. Show her that
you love her."
"I don't know..."
The woman slapped his arm. "Don't argue with Madame
Zorkoff. Do as I say."
He nearly laughed out loud at her fierce, commanding
words, but something in her eyes told him she wasn't kidding.
"Thank you, Madame."
She nodded and then turned and walked away, leaving
Nick standing there with only his thoughts. And all of them
were about Cassidy. Determination filled him, and with purposeful
strides he walked to his car and got in. He was going to Cassidy's
and he was going to tell her the truth. And by God, the woman
was going to listen to him. If words didn't work, then maybe
actions would. There was no way she could deny her feelings
for him whenever she was in his arms.