Chapter One
She hurt all over; her ribs and
abdomen ached horribly. She lay there,
sprawled in the dirt, panting in
an effort to breathe lightly and
avoid the band of sharp pain squeezing
her chest with every inhalation.
She could feel the coarse sand, rough
against her cheek, and smell the
dust caused by her wheezing. Every
breath pulled some of the dirt into
her nose and lungs. Licking her dry
lips, she tasted her own blood oozing
from the cut there. Her mouth was
dry; she didn’t have any spit
left to wet her lips. The gritty
dust coated her tongue. She could
feel it between her teeth.
The sun beat down on her; she should
have been hot, but she wasn’t.
She was cold and shivering. Chills
raced along her skin, and she could
feel the hair prickling along her
arms. Her hands and feet felt icy
and bloodless. A shudder racked her
body, and in turn, sent another wave
of hurt through her. Concentrating,
she separated herself from the pain.
Retreating into her mind, she felt
her muscles relax and her body sink
into the sand. The pain became a
distant drum beat. Shock. I must
be going into shock.
Run. She needed to run. But
she couldn’t make herself move. Damn
it, Jane. Get up. Closing her
eyes and gritting her teeth against
the agony to come, she gathered the
last of her strength and sat up.
Pain shot through her ribs. They
must be cracked. She’d
never had cracked ribs before, but
she’d heard others describe
the vise-like pain of broken ribs.
She’d never had so much as
a sprained ankle. Before.
Before Anthony.
Before she told that stupid lie.
But she had them now. Still, broken
or cracked ribs were better than
being dead, and if she didn’t
move, she knew soon she’d be
dead. When Anthony came back he was
going to kill her. If he didn’t,
Roman would. She could hear her heartbeat
pounding in her ear, drowning out
all sounds. The smell of her own
blood and sweat crowded her senses.
That was why she didn’t hear
or smell him coming. But through
the eye that wasn’t swollen
shut, she saw him.
A giant of a man, with large, brutal
hands, he strode toward her. No pity
or compassion was reflected on his
face or in his eyes. Jane scrambled,
trying to get to her feet, but she
couldn’t make her deadened
limbs work. All of her coordination
was gone, her legs limp noodles.
In desperation, she scooted backwards,
in an awkward crab walk. His shadow
fell across her, blocking out the
sun. Clutching her by the hair, and
not giving her time to get to her
feet, he began to drag her forward.
Despite her slight weight, it felt
as though he was ripping her hair
out by the roots. Jane tried to get
to her feet, but he was moving too
fast. She grabbed his hand, a useless
effort to loosen his grip. Still,
she fought him, her nails digging
into his skin. Then Jane felt her
body flying through the air as he
slung her forward. She landed with
a jarring impact that made her teeth
slam together. Stunned, she lay there,
the band of pain around her ribs
so tight she couldn’t breathe.
Her head was aching and stinging
where he had gripped her hair.
A foot came flying out of nowhere
and connected with her ribs. It was
too much, Jane thought. She was going
to throw up. She couldn’t breathe,
her lungs wouldn’t work. Her
vision darkened, and she wondered
if she was going to pass out. Another
hand knotted in her hair and forced
her to her knees. Her head was pulled
back until she thought her neck was
going to snap. Opening her eye, Anthony’s
face filled her limited vision. She
couldn’t stop the whimper of
fear from escaping. Using his grip
in her hair, he forced her to her
feet. Jane balled up her fist. If
she was going down, she was going
down fighting. Before she could strike
out, she was flung away. Caught off
guard, she stumbled and went down
again.
“What the hell are you doing?
Have you lost your fucking mind?”
The voice came from above her. She
couldn’t see him, but she knew
who it was. It was Roman Silva. Anthony
had brought her to the one place
guaranteed to reveal her lie, the
one place that guaranteed her death.
If he didn’t kill her, Roman
would.
Jane felt him crouch down in front
of her. When she refused to open
her eyes and look at him, he cupped
her chin in his hard, callused palm
and tilted her head up. An angry
hiss of breath raced over her face.
She tensed, waiting for the blow.
Instead, he dropped her chin and
stood. He took one step forward and
stopped.
“Stay right where you are.
I would hate to have to kill you,” Anthony
said. Jane turned her head in the
direction of his voice. She saw he
had a gun pointed at Roman.
“She says the bastard in her
belly is yours.” There it was.
Her lie. Her only avenue of escape
revealed for the lie that it was.
Jane tensed, waiting. She didn’t
know what would happen. Didn’t
know what Roman would do. She turned
back to look up at Roman. His face
was hard, the expression chilling.
“A bastard for a bastard.” Anthony’s
voice was vicious. “What a
way to start a pack,” he mocked.
Roman lunged for Anthony. Shocked,
Jane stayed kneeling in the sand.
A shot was fired, and she flinched,
expecting to feel a bullet ripping
through her flesh. After a moment,
once she realized she hadn’t
been shot, she sagged in relief.
Falling forward she knelt on her
hands and knees. A door slammed and
she looked up. A woman had run out
of the house onto the porch and skidded
to a halt, a look of horror on her
face. She couldn’t identify
her, knew the stranger wasn’t
part of her pack. In a flash, Jane
realized they must be at Roman’s
house, his pack’s compound.
Turning, Jane glanced to see what
was happening behind her. Men were
tangling, cussing, and dust was flying.
Roman was fighting one of Anthony’s
men. His opponent was huge, he slammed
his fist into Roman’s face.
Roman jerked back his head, stumbled
and almost fell. The other were took
advantage of Roman’s misstep.
Ramming his head into Roman’s
stomach, he threw Roman down onto
the ground and pulled his leg back
to kick him. Jane heard a howl from
behind, and seconds later, the woman
leapt from the porch onto the man’s
back.
This was her moment and Jane seized
it. Crawling on her hands and knees,
she skirted around the ruckus. No
one was playing any attention to
her. Everyone’s attention was
focused on the brawl. Halfway around
the scuffle, Jane looked up to make
sure she was still unnoticed and
to get her bearings. Just ahead of
her, Anthony’s gun lay in the
dirt. Anthony was a short distance
away, shaking his head, trying to
clear it. Roman must have punched
him and come close to knocking him
out. Immediately, Jane’s plans
changed. Adrenalin pumping, all her
aches and pains disappeared as her
attention narrowed down to the weapon
in front of her. Tensing her muscles,
she crouched low, preparing to spring.
She lunged and when her hand closed
around the cold handle, she felt
a savage sense of triumph.
Werewolf instinct took control,
and the need to close in for the
kill overrode all sense of pain.
Shakily, she rose to her feet, gun
in hand. Standing behind her enemy,
her tormentor, the need for revenge
welled up in her. Looking up, she
took note of the chaos around her.
No one, not even Anthony, was aware
of where she was or that she now
was in possession of the gun. All
attention was focused on the fight.
The woman was riding the back of
Roman’s opponent, fighting
with all her might. Jane concluded
that she must be Roman’s mate.
Punching, scratching, growling her
fury, she raked her nails down the
side of his face and ripped the skin
away, leaving bloody trails behind.
He reared back and threw her from
his back. Whirling around, he backhanded
her, knocking her to the ground.
Roman jumped to his feet, spun the
man around and punched him in the
face. He staggered back, but remained
on his feet. Before he could charge
Roman again, Jane fired a shot in
the air. Then she pressed the smoking
barrel to the back of Anthony’s
head. Everyone turned to stare in
her direction.
Anthony sat in the dirt, none the
worse for wear, except for the gun
pressed against the back of his head.
They had forgotten her in the midst
of the fray, but she had their attention
now.
“I should kill you.” Her
voice was soft, but full of loathing.
Cocking the gun, Jane jabbed the
barrel against Anthony’s head.
Hate welled up within her, and Jane
had a hard time controlling it.
No one moved, waiting to see what
she would do. If in her place, after
receiving the beating she had, many
would have pulled the trigger. This
was werewolf business, the authorities
would never be contacted.
Roman’s mate took a step forward.
Jane jerked her head up, but she
didn’t take the gun from the
back of Anthony’s head. Her
finger was still on the trigger.
“Don’t.” She spoke
to Jane in soothing tones. “Don’t
do it.”
“Why not?” Jane’s
voice did not reveal any of her rage.
It was too deep, frozen inside.
“What will you gain?” She
took a step closer to Jane.
“Satisfaction.” She
felt rage twist her battered features,
pulling the tender, brutalized skin
into a horrible grimace. The urge
to pull the trigger almost became
more than she could bear.
“Not for long.” Roman’s
mate sounded so sure. Jane wondered
if she had ever felt the abusive
side of a man’s hand. Because
she was a were, Jane had taken a
beating that would have killed a
human woman. But being a were didn’t
alleviate the pain. She wondered
how Sabine would deal with the agony.
“Tell me why he should live.” The
gun in her hand trembled as wolf
and human battled. The wolf inside
really wanted to pull the trigger,
while the human shuddered in horror
at taking a life.
“Because if you do, you’ll
have to live with the knowledge that
you’ve killed someone for the
rest of your life.”
“So? He deserves it.” She
could feel the need to kill him bubble
up inside. She struggled with herself.
It was not her nature to kill in
cold blood. It was not in her nature
to kill. She had never even participated
in any of the pack hunts.
“Yes, he does, but you don’t
deserve living with a guilty conscience.”
Jane lowered the gun, but didn’t
take her finger off the trigger.
The human side had won, but the wolf
was but a heartbeat away. For the
first time, it was howling for blood.
If Anthony made one move she would
kill him. He seemed to know that,
because he stayed where he was.
“Give Roman the gun and come
in the house with me.” The
gentleness of the request reached
her, allowing her to push the killing
rage back.
Never taking her eyes off Anthony,
Jane made her way over to Roman.
She placed the gun from her hand
in his outstretched hand. He closed
his hand over the weapon.
“Go on into the house. We’ll
take care of this.” Both women
heard the intent in his voice. Jane
felt a primal sense of satisfaction
well up. Roman was going to kill
him.
“You can’t kill him
either. Get him off the island, beat
the hell out of him. Just don’t
kill him.” Roman’s mate
objected to what was so obvious on
his face.
“I won’t shoot him.” Roman
looked down at Anthony and grinned,
showing a lot of teeth. His expression
said it all. Anthony was about to
receive the beating of a lifetime.
She motioned Jane to follow her,
not attempting to touch her. Jane
was grateful, she didn’t know
how she would have reacted if the
stranger had tried to touch her.
Rage? Hysterics? Silently, Jane followed
her into the house.
Walking into the kitchen, Jane was
motioned to sit down at the table.
The rush of adrenalin was over, and
she was beginning to ache again.
Her ribs hurt, as did her scalp and
face. She didn’t sit in the
chair, she fell into it, her legs
giving out. Her hostess left the
room, and Jane just sat there in
the silence. She listened; there
was a scuffle outside. She could
hear grunts and groans, and the impact
of fists connecting with flesh. She
felt a savage sense of satisfaction.
Anthony was getting the beating he
deserved. The bastard. She was sorry
she couldn’t give it to him.
Was sorry she wasn’t out there
to witness it. But she didn’t
think her legs would carry her out
there.
“Well, I think we might as
well introduce ourselves. I’m
Sabine.”
Jane’s head jerked up. The
woman had returned, with a tray of
first-aid supplies in hand. Moving
swiftly and silently, she crossed
the room and set the tray down on
the table. Jane said nothing as Sabine
pulled a chair over to sit in front
of her.
“Jane.” Her voice was
hoarse and barely audible even to
her own ears. “My name is Jane
Lyke.”
Sabine’s smile was sympathetic. “Well,
Jane. I’m not going to lie
to you. I’m going to clean
up your face, and it’s going
to hurt. But it’s got to be
done.”
Sabine didn’t lie. It hurt
like hell. The water stung, the antiseptic
burned. By the time Sabine was finished,
silent tears had pooled in Jane’s
eyes and she thought her face was
on fire. But she sat through it all,
without making a sound. When it was
over, Sabine gave her an ice pack
for her eye. Then she clasped Jane’s
free hand in hers. Jane looked down
at their hands. Sabine’s hand
was long and slender, the nails well
manicured and of medium length. Jane’s
hand was smaller, paler, and the
nails were jagged and torn. She’d
destroyed her nails trying to escape
Anthony.
Facing the door, Jane couldn’t
help but stiffen when she saw Roman
enter the room a few minutes later.
She immediately pulled her hand away
from Sabine’s. Frowning, Sabine
turned around, her face clearing
when she saw Roman. She introduced
them.
“Roman, this is Jane Lyke.
Jane, this is my mate, Roman.”
Jane jerked when Sabine announced
Roman was her mate. She had known
that, had sensed the connection between
the two of them immediately. Yet
it was still a shock to have it said
aloud. It was just verbal proof of
the horrible mistake she’d
made.
“Please don’t worry,
he would never hurt you.” Sabine
covered Jane’s hand. Jane marveled
at the conviction she heard in the
other woman’s voice. Earlier
she had wondered if Sabine had ever
experienced the rough side of a man’s
hand. Now she knew. Sabine had never
been struck in her life.
“Sabine, has she told you
why she was brought here?” He
spoke calmly, but the timbre echoed
in the room, and Jane felt a sinking
sensation in the pit of her stomach
“No, we haven’t discussed
that yet.” There was a slight
edge to her voice.
“I think she should.” He
stated it calmly, almost blandly,
yet it was a demand.
Jane couldn’t help the slight
whimper that escaped. She really
didn’t want to give voice to
what she’d done.
Sabine pinched her lips and glared
at him. “Not now.” There
was a stare down between them. Jane
shifted in her seat, nervous and
scared. She hadn’t expected
this.
“It’s okay.” She
spoke quietly. She didn’t want
them fighting over her.
“No, it’s not. Roman
has no right to bully you.” Sabine
squeezed her hand, while glaring
at Roman. Jane took heart in the
silent show of support.
Cringing inside, Jane blurted out, “I
told Anthony I was pregnant with
Roman’s baby.” Then she
waited for the explosion. It was
a massive lie. In the world of werewolves,
it was an unforgivable lie. Were
women were to remain chaste until
being claimed by a mate. The accusation
of a male mating with an unclaimed
female and abandoning her was horrendous.
That got Sabine’s attention.
Her head snapped around to look Jane.
“What?” Sabine’s
voice was incredulous. Roman crossed
his arms and leaned against the wall
facing them. “Why?”
“I don’t know.” How
could she explain the fear, the desperation
that drove her to do something like
that?
“Oh, yes, you do. I’m
sure you didn’t think of his
name out of the blue.” Sabine’s
voice had an edge to it now.
Jane peered about the room, everywhere
but at Sabine and Roman. Licking
her lips, she started to speak, but
couldn’t. She might as well
tell it. There was no escape.
“I didn’t know he would
be that mad. When I told him, he
went crazy. I thought he would just
leave me alone or cast me out.” She
didn’t say anything more, afraid
she would break down completely and
sob hysterically. She could feel
the need to do so building inside
her. Her eyes burned with unshed
tears, her chest ached with suppressed
screams. She refused to let either
the screams or tears escape. If anything,
she wanted to preserve some dignity.
Breathing heavily, she exerted a
tremendous effort not to cry.
Sabine handed her a tissue and sat
back down across from her.
“Calm down. You’re going
to make yourself sick. Get yourself
together, and then start from the
beginning.” Sabine’s
voice was gentle. Why did she have
to sound so understanding?
A deep breath shuddered from Jane’s
chest, and she dropped her hands
into her lap. Twisting the damp tissue,
she found it easier to stare at her
hands than into the eyes watching
her.
“Anthony said that when I
went into season he was going to
claim me. I wasn’t ready. I
told him I needed time. He just laughed
and told me it wasn’t up to
me to decide when or who.” She
started shredding the tissue.
“The closer my time came,
the more frantic I got. I didn’t
know what to do. So I started thinking
of things I could do that would make
him not want me.” Jane turned
to look up at Roman.
“I remembered you. He was
afraid of you and your brother. I
didn’t think I’d ever
see you again. I didn’t think
he would...”
“You didn’t think.” His
voice was cold, and the dam holding
her tears broke. She started sobbing
again. She should have known better
than try to explain her actions,
her desperation. He was male. He
had no reason to fear being claimed,
possessed by someone larger, stronger.
“Calm down. Take a deep breath
and calm down.” Sabine patted
her on the shoulder.
“I thought if I told him I
was pregnant, he wouldn’t want
me anymore.” She’d thought
Roman’s reputation and Anthony’s
fear of him would keep her safe.
She’d had no idea Anthony would
confront Roman.
“What did you think he was
going to do when you told him something
like that, especially naming me as
the father?” Roman’s
voice was sharp. Jumping up, Sabine
shooed him out of the kitchen.
“Get out. You’re not
helping. Let me calm her down and
talk to her. Just go!” Throwing
up his hands in a sign of disgust
and frustration, Roman left the kitchen.
Sabine sat down across from Jane.
They sat there in silence. Jane worked
to get her emotions under control.
She’d cried more in the last
few minutes than the entire time
with Anthony. Maybe it was in reaction
to being safe. And she was safe.
No matter how mad she made these
people, they would not kill her.
If Roman was going to kill her, he
would have done so by now. Anthony
would have.
Raising her head, she studied the
woman across from her, taking in
the long, black hair, and beautiful,
composed face. Sabine Silva didn’t
look as if she had ever had a moment
of doubt or insecurity. How could
she explain to her the fear and revulsion
she felt at the thought of being
forced to mate with someone she found
so unappealing. How could Sabine
ever understand the desperation,
the need for escape that drove Jane
to tell such a lie? How to explain
she’d rather spend the rest
of her days in exile than tied to
someone she did not, could not love.
“I’ve known Anthony
my entire life. He was there from
my earliest memories. His grandfather
and my grandfather are friends. My
father was a strong force in helping
him regain the alpha position. At
first, I didn’t pay much attention
to Anthony, he’s older than
me and we never hung out in the same
crowd. But he was always there in
the background.” Jane looked
over Sabine’s shoulder, thinking
what to say, how much to say. Did
Sabine know her mate was Anthony’s
older brother?
“Then I had my first season.
I didn’t handle the rush of
hormones very well.” That was
an understatement. The strange rush
of feelings and impulses coursing
through her body had been both terrifying
and exhilarating. “So I changed
and took to the woods. I planned
on staying out of sight and smell
until I could adjust to the changes
in my body.”
The plan had been a good one at
first. She had not come into contact
with any males and the overwhelming
urge to mate had abated. Then she
had run into Anthony. He had been
out on a hunt with several other
pack mates. As with most pack hunts,
they had separated to herd their
prey to a particular destination,
then would close in for the kill.
Jane had been rolling in the grass,
enjoying the physicality of being
a were, when he had burst through
the bushes. Jane had leapt to her
feet and prepared to run, but Anthony
sprang forward and clamped his teeth
to her neck. She shuddered in remember
fear and revulsion. He’d forced
her down, until she had kneeled in
the dirt, and had stood over her.
His wolf body had overshadowed her
smaller wolfen form, causing fear
to prickle her fur.
“He would have mounted me
there. I have no doubt of that. I
could sense his intent. Then another
pack mate came upon us, and he let
me go.” She didn’t know
why he’d let her go, but she
counted it a blessing that he had.
Jane didn’t know why she had
rejected him. It had been instinctive.
Something in his smell had repelled
her.
She hadn’t had much of a reprieve.
Anthony had gone to the pack and
immediately announced his intent
to mate with her. Jane had begged
her parents, but to no avail. Mates
were decreed by nature. Seeing that
she would get no help from her pack,
Jane realized there was little she
could do to stop Anthony from claiming
her during her next cycle.
“So I thought of the one person
that everyone in the pack feared,
even Anthony’s grandfather.
Roman Silva.” Jane paused.
Taking the ice pack from her face,
she played with the ice in the plastic,
pushing it first one way, then another.
She wished she could manipulate her
life as easily as she did the ice
in the makeshift ice pack. Bracing
herself for the condemnation she
was sure she would see in Sabine’s
eyes, she looked up. Instead of the
censure she expected, she found understanding
and compassion. She swallowed the
lump in her throat.
“I had no idea that Anthony
would react the way he did. He went
crazy.”
In the middle of the night he had
come for her and dragged her out
of her home. No one stopped him.
Not even her parents. Some part of
her hoped that they had no idea he
planned to beat her the way he did.
Yet the newly cynical part of her
whispered that they did. Even if
she could go back, she wouldn’t.
She wouldn’t be part of a pack
that let males brutalize females.
Wouldn’t be part of a pack
that completely subjugated the female’s
will to that of the male. She would
rather be an outcast.